I am just about to set off to the first day of my third term at Preston Roller Girls sinners training. This marks one year since I first put on states and took a full five minutes to stand up.
Under the new (and super awesome) training structure, this isn’t technically another new beginning, but there will be some new skaters joining us and it will be a good chance to go over the basics again.
I haven’t felt up to blogging in a while, there has been a lot of stuff going on that isn’t really publicly publishable, but it’s all basically wrapped up now and I feel much better for it.
So, with my health definitely improving thanks to some new medication and my motivation pretty strong, I am excited to be getting back to training. However as always, I’m not quite physically up to it so I’m also a little nervous.
One thing is for certain, I’ve made bags of progress since last year. My initial expectations were unrealistic, I suppose, as I’d hoped to be skating like a pro by now. However in other ways it’s quite remarkable that I am able, for example, to balance on one leg whilst throwing my weight around from side to side without falling over. I suppose I’d never imagined that I would be able to do something like that!
I think the most remarkable thing is the journey I have been on, rather than some specific skill I learned or am yet to master. My whole approach to my body is changing: I have gotten help for a condition I have been ignoring for years and have learned some basic skills in putting my wellbeing first, even if it means taking a risk or standing up against people who seem so strong… I am finally starting to value and utilise my fierce! Yay!